- It's been a good day
- November 11th, 2010
Chris and I went to Powhatan/Midlothian today in search of issue 75 of Invincible. We got that, issue 66 that we were missing, a Previews, and Fables: 1001 Nights of Snowfall for just over $20. It pays to be married to a comic artist! We also went to Target and looked at all the Christmas decorations and candy. I feel the excitement building and also the bittersweet feelings of remembering past Christmases and the family that is no longer with us. When my grandma died December 6, 1998, my dad's side of the family stopped getting together. No more Christmas breakfasts at Grandma's house, no more spending the day with cousins, aunts, and uncles I don't see otherwise. When dad died December 25, 2000, mom stopped having Christmas morning at her house. No more delicious food cooked by my dad, no more Christmas trees for mom... Then Papa died March 21, 2003. No more Christmas Eves at Nanny & Papa's house, no more family dinners with aunts, uncles, and cousins I don't see otherwise, no more Christmas decorations for Nanny.
Not to mention when Chris's aunt Leigh and uncle John divorced...no more Burke family Christmases. Now Chris's parents live in a tiny house so no more cooking for my mother-in-law and no more Christmas at their house. So many changes to family traditions...each one leaving a small hole in my heart. I LOVE Christmas. It is such a magical time of year for me. I love the decorations, the lights, the scents, the sounds, the time spent with family....I want to pass these things on to my children. I hope I am making memories for them that they will hold onto all their life and look back on when they are grown.
Two weeks from today is Thanksgiving. We are supposed to be eating at my sister-in-law's house. Her husband will cook the turkey. We won't have many sides because they are so picky they don't like most things. Also, eating elsewhere means no leftovers to snack on for the next week. No turkey sandwiches, leftover stuffing with gravy, rolls, pumpkin pie.... I think I'm going to have to do a second Thanksgiving dinner at home. I know it's not a healthy outlook, but in my family, food = love. Eating comfort food at the table with my family and having conversations about anything and everything is one of the things I love the most. (No wonder I'm overweight!) Tonight I'm going to give my kids an extra hug and a kiss and tell them that I love them. I want them to enjoy their childhoods and know that they are loved.